Don't get me wrong, I'm doing a lot of awesome, incredible things at the moment. I'm enjoying myself quite a bit! I'm getting the chance to use a lot of my gifts, and doing many things that I've been wanting to for a long time. And I'm still pinching myself about being in a relationship with somebody - and someone who is really amazing. Not perfect, nobody is - but rather incredible and beautiful nonetheless. I might be a bit biased, but I think that's okay ;)
But yeah. Even though pretty much all of what I'm doing is awesome - it's still a lot. And that's been draining me a bit sometimes. Don't really know what the solution is - and I know that things are going to get worse before they get better. But I'll get there! One way or another.
Something else that I think has stretched a bit over the last while, and which it might be good to talk about, has been my own ideas about a relationship. As many of you probably know, before this, I hadn't been in a relationship at any point. A few times here and there where I thought something might be happening, but no dice. Even so, I still built up plenty of ideas about what being in a relationship would be like; what I thought it might feel like, things I wanted to do or say when I got there, things I thought might happen, or what would be difficult, all this sort of thing. This won't be news to those that are in or have been in relationships - but a lot of that gets challenged, stretched, or even chucked out the window when you actually go into a relationship. Because this is a unique person, with a particular personality, needs, and desires. And that's going to mean that your relationship will look a little bit different from every other relationship that you see, any other relationship you've had, and certainly any ideas that you've had in your head about it.
I'm still learning. We're still learning - it's her first time as well! We make quite a few mistakes, but we're pretty honest with each other about those, and forgiving of each other. We're good at keeping each other in check when that needs to happen, or challenging each other when that needs to happen. Or taking care of each other when that needs to happen. Hugs are good :)
For all the stretching - life is pretty good at the moment. I'm on a rather incredible journey, and I haven't often had time to stop and talk about it over the past months, which I've missed being able to do. But I'm enjoying myself. Living life! It's a good thing. Hopefully it's not as long before you hear from me again. Until next time - keep being awesome.
Something else that I think has stretched a bit over the last while, and which it might be good to talk about, has been my own ideas about a relationship. As many of you probably know, before this, I hadn't been in a relationship at any point. A few times here and there where I thought something might be happening, but no dice. Even so, I still built up plenty of ideas about what being in a relationship would be like; what I thought it might feel like, things I wanted to do or say when I got there, things I thought might happen, or what would be difficult, all this sort of thing. This won't be news to those that are in or have been in relationships - but a lot of that gets challenged, stretched, or even chucked out the window when you actually go into a relationship. Because this is a unique person, with a particular personality, needs, and desires. And that's going to mean that your relationship will look a little bit different from every other relationship that you see, any other relationship you've had, and certainly any ideas that you've had in your head about it.
I'm still learning. We're still learning - it's her first time as well! We make quite a few mistakes, but we're pretty honest with each other about those, and forgiving of each other. We're good at keeping each other in check when that needs to happen, or challenging each other when that needs to happen. Or taking care of each other when that needs to happen. Hugs are good :)
For all the stretching - life is pretty good at the moment. I'm on a rather incredible journey, and I haven't often had time to stop and talk about it over the past months, which I've missed being able to do. But I'm enjoying myself. Living life! It's a good thing. Hopefully it's not as long before you hear from me again. Until next time - keep being awesome.
