And Soon

I'm at breaking point

With every little thing, I feel like the balance will tip

And I'm scared of what might happen if it does

I'm like a leaf blown in the wind

Every little buffet blows me this way

And that

Slave to whatever happens around me

Rather than directing it

It directs me

I'm down the creek with no canoe

Barely staying afloat

I don't know how to get out

Don't know how I got in

Don't know how long it will last

Or how long I will

This is where I am weakest

My most vulnerable

Scared

And alone

Yet I have no self-motivation

No drive to get me out

I can only pray

That God will, and soon